The I Feel Down Topic.

I was supposed to be at airsoft today with my friend, and I also had one of my anxiety attacks last night, and didn't sleep at all. So of course I had to bail on her. I then of course felt REALLY TIRED and didn't wake up until 7pm today.

My health is really bad, I've been told I have 'ME' but I don't believe it for a second, I am convinced it's an endocrine problem that can be treated. Whenever I push myself, this happens. Like a migraine on the first day of a holiday! It's destroying my social life - my health AND the anxiety attacks (I don't even feel anxious. I just feel irritated that it's happening).

Incidentally it never happened when I was with my last long term boyfriend (and thank you for all the kind words - it is not just me who is suffering, I'm just making a lot of noise about it as it's affecting me right now).

Laura said:

Clubbing, babies, dinner parties

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Maybe clubbing babies at a dinner party would be a fun pre-meal activity but separate activities like that? Ergh

Life FTL at the moment, feels like everything's going belly-up

EDIT: Realise this isn't particularly descriptive - ignore me, I just needed somewhere to vent about the (comparatively minor to some!) things that have all hit at the same time to make me feel utterly fed up!

Poison Tom 96 said:

Laura said:

Clubbing, babies, dinner parties

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Maybe clubbing babies at a dinner party would be a fun pre-meal activity but separate activitie like that? Ergh

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Just in case you worried Tom is a legend and will be trying to cheer you up as he did with me when I hit rock bottom last year ;D

LAURA STOP BEING ASHAMED OF YOUR HOBBIES!

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Also, when you meet the right person, none of this will matter because it will just work. Not effortlessly, but it will work. I am also a firm believer that you have to love and be comfortable with who you are before you meet someone else...as Carrie Bradshaw said, 'When you find someone who loves the you you love, well that's just fabulous!'

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I agreed with everything my lovely friend said until she ruined it using a SITC quote. Don't completely dismiss everything she said though we can forgive her a minor indiscretion.

You do seem very down though Laura. My anxiety got so bad after last year I threw myself headlong into therapy and am LOVING it!! I get to use myself as a guinea pig to find out things that may help others along my path. It isn't for everyone & I don't know how you feel in relation to it, but sometimes we just need some help because life can frankly be a bastard at times.

Mike said:

Life FTL at the moment, feels like everything's going belly-up

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Belly up means you can crap down and not get it on yourself. Silver linings and all that

Job hunting is going terribly, I've applied for well over 100 Jobs in the past few months and I've had about 5 interviews out of them all... I keep getting declined without an interview, even when I have an interview I get declined, I've tried all types of different methods, walking into shops, applying by web.

It's just getting ridiculous. Went for an interview for a job I really REALLY wanted yesterday and got an email back in 24 hours from finishing the interview saying I didn't get the job.

I'm losing all willpower and I'm starting to feel completely unemployable.

Need to get out of this rut but it's feeling impossible.

If you get to interview, then dont get the job. contact them and ask for feedback on how you can improve your interview techque.

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If you get to interview, then dont get the job. contact them and ask for feedback on how you can improve your interview techque.

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Done that a few times, they tell me they'll get their recruitment manager to contact me back, I never hear back from them.

I'm <censored> ashamed of my family. I confided in my sister about a number of things, abuse from my mother being the main thing. This took place when my parents split and we moved into a new house, just us two, 7 years ago. She became dependent on me and would often get hammered and go into rages where she tore to pieces everything that I am and loved. I've been in therapy for 14 months now gradually building up to confronting her about it. So I speak to my sister beforehand as I regularly confided in her. Then on Monday morning, she decided to go and tell my mother everything. Absolutely everything. Cue a very upset and angry mother asking me what the matter was, how could I say such things, how hurt she was, etc. I remained far more calm than I should have, and told my sister she'd betrayed me and I didn't want to speak to her. She had the audacity to be pissed off at me for burdening her with my problems and getting her involved.

So I'm left with a mother I can't face because I am absolutely NOT ready to discuss anything that happened in that house, but it's all she wants to talk about. She wants me to stay dependent on her so she can make me into the person she wants me to be. I'm left with a sister who completely destroyed any trust I had in her, and was the only one in my family I could confide in, and is so self-absorbed that she is convinced she's completely in the right. I'm left with a father who is recovering from 25 years of dependence from my mother and bipolar disorder so severe it tore our entire family unit apart and nearly took his life 5 years ago.

I'm 22 years old, a full time independent student, trying to stay afloat with £8k a year in loans to support myself and my partner, renting a flat that we share with a friend that we couldn't remotely afford if he moved out. When I finish my degree in a year, I have nowhere to go. It's a case of find a job that pays enough or become homeless. My work history is appalling due to my mental health issues caused by the latter years of my upbringing, nowhere will touch me.

It's too much.

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I'm <censored> ashamed of my family. I confided in my sister about a number of things. So I speak to my sister beforehand as I regularly confided in her. Then on Monday morning, she decided to go and tell my mother everything. Absolutely everything.

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You have every right to think your sister is a s t. She did one of the worst things that could have happened. You confided in her and she spilt all? Disgusting behaviour.

Cue a very upset and angry mother

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I understand this reaction, it probably wasn't told in remotely the correct way. But she KNOWS what she did.

I remained far more calm than I should have, and told my sister she'd betrayed me and I didn't want to speak to her.

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Being calm is good! No need to sink to their angry level. I wouldn't want to speak to her after this betrayal either.

She had the audacity to be pissed off at me for burdening her with my problems and getting her involved.

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UTTER Twunt tbh.

So I'm left with a mother I can't face because I am absolutely NOT ready to discuss anything that happened in that house, but it's all she wants to talk about. She wants me to stay dependent on her so she can make me into the person she wants me to be. I'm left with a sister who completely destroyed any trust I had in her, and was the only one in my family I could confide in, and is so self-absorbed that she is convinced she's completely in the right. I'm left with a father who is recovering from 25 years of dependence from my mother and bipolar disorder so severe it tore our entire family unit apart and nearly took his life 5 years ago.

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Whatever happens, try the utmost not to become dependant. I have spoken enough about your 'sister' and your father sounds like the one who you can most trust at this moment in time (don't know your relationship with him though)

I'm 22 years old, a full time independent student, trying to stay afloat with £8k a year in loans to support myself and my partner, renting a flat that we share with a friend that we couldn't remotely afford if he moved out. When I finish my degree in a year, I have nowhere to go. It's a case of find a job that pays enough or become homeless. My work history is appalling due to my mental health issues caused by the latter years of my upbringing, nowhere will touch me.

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Workplaces SHOULD be more understanding if you explain your issues and explain how you are trying to overcome them.

It's too much.

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We're ALWAYS here to support you, keep pushing as it is better to swim through the st than drown in it.

My virtual door is always open for ANYONE who wishes to rant/scream/cry etc through all mediums (PMs here, FB chat, Twitter DMs etc)

Thank you so much for the reply Tom. It's a relief to know I'm not losing my mind and reacting in a totally inappropriate way. Having support from people like you makes everything feel that much better! Have a good evening

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Thank you so much for the reply Tom. It's a relief to know I'm not losing my mind and reacting in a totally inappropriate way. Having support from people like you makes everything feel that much better! Have a good evening

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I'd hit the thanks button, but the resident forum breaker has broken it. Bloody @Joel! Have a good evening yourself.

Tom, you are a true sweetie! I feel lucky to count you as a friend.

As for myself. I've returned from an epic holiday to Europa Park, to discover that one of my rabbits has died. It was completely out of the blue. She was beautiful, feisty, naughty and just brilliant. I can't believe she is gone. And because it happened a few days ago, I don't get to say goodbye or have a final cuddle. The other two rabbits are pining for her, and not eating much, which is extremely worrying for a rabbit. I'm just gutted

Amy said:

Tom, you are a true sweetie!

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Can I be a wine gum if I am a sweetie?

I feel lucky to count you as a friend.

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Awww thank you I feel the same too

She was beautiful, feisty, naughty and just brilliant. I can't believe she is gone. And because it happened a few days ago, I don't get to say goodbye or have a final cuddle.

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In the immortal words of Lennie from Of Mice And Men "I wanna pet the rabbits George". Poor Troy, poor Harry and poor you

The other two rabbits are pining for her, and not eating much, which is extremely worrying for a rabbit. I'm just gutted

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Misty was pining when we lost Fluff, it was horrendous to see. They need hugs, and lots of them.

A Tutor from my uni flew out to Orlando this week to check in with those of us out here on placement. Work has naturally been very busy this week due to the easter crowds, so I ended up having to work on the day we had previously arranged the appointment for.

I tried to email her about this as soon as I realised but had received no confirmation of a date, no actual correspondence since March 12th and the email I did send came back with the dreaded "Out of office reply". I checked my email every hour but received no response so decided the best course of action would be to seek her out myself personally to try and reconcile the situation.

Despite being truly sorry and trying my best to make amends, she started ranting at me in a manner I haven't experienced since I was in trouble at primary school, and generally just talked to me in a way that made me feel about 2 feet tall. She also accused me of being "unprofessional" and tried to insinuate her time was more important than mine. Because 8 hours on a plane is far more stressful than a 60 hour work week in a theme park. Not to mention she claimed I was "an Embarrassment to Disney" despite receiving nothing but positive comments from both guests and my managers.

I'm just completely shaken up by it and can't believe someone who is supposed to be my placement support could be so rude and unforgiving. I totally understand why she was upset, hence why I went to such efforts to apologise, yet she just dismissed any of my own concerns and talked to me like a child.

I'm Unprofessional? Pot… Kettle

NF2 said:

A Tutor from my uni flew out to Orlando this week to check in with those of us out here on placement. Work has naturally been very busy this week due to the easter crowds, so I ended up having to work on the day we had previously arranged the appointment for.

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Totally reasonable

I tried to email her about this as soon as I realised but had received no confirmation of a date, no actual correspondence since March 12th and the email I did send came back with the dreaded "Out of office reply". I checked my email every hour but received no response so decided the best course of action would be to seek her out myself personally to try and reconcile the situation.

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I'll never understand those out of office email things. You did right to seek her out.

Despite being truly sorry and trying my best to make amends, she started ranting at me in a manner I haven't experienced since I was in trouble at primary school, and generally just talked to me in a way that made me feel about 2 feet tall. She also accused me of being "unprofessional" and tried to insinuate her time was more important than mine. Because 8 hours on a plane is far more stressful than a 60 hour work week in a theme park. Not to mention she claimed I was "an Embarrassment to Disney" despite receiving nothing but positive comments from both guests and my managers.

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How was it your time? You were at work! Belittling is only a sign of them being desperate to win an argument. I highly doubt you are an embarrassment to Disney!

I'm just completely shaken up by it and can't believe someone who is supposed to be my placement support could be so rude and unforgiving. I totally understand why she was upset, hence why I went to such efforts to apologise, yet she just dismissed any of my own concerns and talked to me like a child.

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Don't blame you for being shaken up, she sounds like a major cow. Don't let it affect you much longer, by rising above it, you beat her silly games.

I'm Unprofessional? Pot… Kettle

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Which do you prefer being? Make you choice now!

Thanks Tom I've had help from family and friends in composing an earnest sounding email that reiterates my positive intentions and makes it clear just how much the whole encounter shook me up. Hopefully if she has any soul (i'm doubtful!) it might make her stop and think about the way she communicates with people.

If not then maybe the mud slinging has to start, but hopefully it won't get to that level. Its kind of hypocritical that she was complaining that I was wasting the universities money when A) I'm not the only person out here she was visiting so the only thing I wasted was 45 minutes of her time, and B) My parents have paid £800 in fees for the uni to simply hold my place for the year anyway, so its technically all the placement students that paid for her ticket out here.

Agony Uncle Tom to the rescue again

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Thanks Tom I've had help from family and friends in composing an earnest sounding email that reiterates my positive intentions and makes it clear just how much the whole encounter shook me up. Hopefully if she has any soul (i'm doubtful!) it might make her stop and think about the way she communicates with people.

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Good idea, but if she continually communicates badly, it may end up in the recycle bin, ignored.

If not then maybe the mud slinging has to start, but hopefully it won't get to that level. Its kind of hypocritical that she was complaining that I was wasting the universities money when A) I'm not the only person out here she was visiting so the only thing I wasted was 45 minutes of her time, and B) My parents have paid £800 in fees for the uni to simply hold my place for the year anyway, so its technically all the placement students that paid for her ticket out here.

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Be careful with mudslinging, remember if you do nothing wrong she has nothing to go at. Does she have a superior and have you emailed her/him?

AshleeKel said:

Agony Uncle Tom to the rescue again

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I'm in a very good mood for once, so am sharing the good will

Stuck in the EuroTunnel terminal in Calais. Oh, goody.