The I Feel Down Topic.

If I just keep spinning on my chair, I won't feel sad anymore. Ugh, now I feel sick and those two people still exist.

I think I'm sliding down that familiar hole again... I haven't attended Uni properly for a few weeks now I'm just dreading going back.

I know that feeling Sam.

Seeing my best friend go through the same situation I had this time last year and it's dredging up horrible memories. Just got to keep thinking time heals everything.

Well, I am first off feeling a bit down thanks to the lack of money in my life and not being able to afford to make this weekends little social gathering! (Beach Party) Just really missing people of late, and it's upsetting to know that some of your best friends are going to be together having fun, while you just sit there in the same room back at your flat doing nothing at all really!

Then secondly, as part of a task for Uni, I have been looking back through some of my old work, and I have to say, the work I produced for my first ever module back in first year has to be the best work I have produced. Which is just depressing really, I know there is only me that can help that, I just feel like I have lost all motivation and spend far too much of my time feeling down and sorry for myself! I guess I should just get my arse into gear and make a better job of these next two modules, a fresh start for 2013!

I feel down because I am such a F**k up. I can't seem to do anything right first time over and I always have to go back and ask for a 'redo' in some way, shape or form.

I break everything I own, I destroy furniture and can never keep anything up to standard. Even my grades are all over the place! GAH.

I'm sure things will get better soon >.<

Ellie said:

I feel down because I am such a F**k up. I can't seem to do anything right first time over and I always have to go back and ask for a 'redo' in some way, shape or form.

I break everything I own, I destroy furniture and can never keep anything up to standard. Even my grades are all over the place! GAH.

I'm sure things will get better soon >.<

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I love you.

That is all.

My ex is trying to stir up trouble between me and my friends who she never got on with anyway.

Let them. If your friends are true friends, they will see it's all lies.

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Sat in Sixth Form feeling hugely depressed but having to put up a front when I just want to cry

There really is that many mistakes in my posts?! Damn this Tapatalk milarky!

FOOD!! It causes so many arguments! As I never eat with my family when I do provide input to a meal I would like to eat with them everyone fires up on me and say thats to healthy or I'm not eating that and moan at me!

Now I am in my room with the lights off headphones on and I will be staying here all weekend. I really can not wait till work on Monday.

Still getting no support from certain family members about my Prince's Trust course. Spoke to the Job Centre today who don't class it as training so I'll have to give up the opportunity if offered a job, and have my grandfather practically railroading me into applying for jobs by constant moaning, nagging and saying the course is a waste of time.

Then saying I'm just as bad as my ex who's sat on JSA for over a year and done no courses, voluntary work or anything to help himself - apparently I'm doing the same by doing this course - trying to avoid working. No, I'm trying to gain experience, qualifications and confidence, and you're making me want to cry

I only have 2 years left where I'm allowed to do this - the upper age limit is 25, why can't my granddad just accept this is what I want to do, let me do my own job searching and LEAVE ME ALONE! instead of going through the papers every week and telling me to apply for jobs, then moaning at me until I do?!

Annoyingly, I live with him, and my mum, gran and uncle. I can't leave because without a job, I can't afford to rent anywhere. I am miserable

This is how I feel about you all posting and helping each other in here.

Groove Armada - My Friend

Feels a bit like an anthem for this site.

Hope it soothes any crappy stuff you are all going through.

Well, I have read this topic but not posted, I often feel down but over this past two weeks I was in a position where I almost could have lsot my job, it was my own fault, for two years I have been doing something stupid, knowing it was wrong but believing it was for the good of everyine involved (not illegal, just not "procedure")

It all came out two weeks ago and other than my boss that helped me through whilst it was being looked into I said nothing to anyone and the situation felt worse day by day. Three days ago I spoke to my wife and my old boss about it. My wife told me I was a tit and we would work through it, my old boss told me I was a tit and worked through the situation to work out how he could help.

Sharing the problem with those who care helps just in th sharing.

Self esteem has taken a bit of a knock again, I can't seem to get the hang of behaving like a person should. Perhaps if I was a foot shorter I'd be less intimidating or annoying to some people, in any case it's going to be difficul
t to change who I fundamentally am.

Last night, I went out to a club that's targeted towards trans people. I don't do this often, but the past few months I've been feeling really lonely. I really want to be in a relationship, but I know that unlike most women I can't go to the usual places to try and meet people. My only options are transgender-related sites or club nights. This isn't ideal for me, as I just wan to be treated like any other woman. I shouldn't have to be segregated from the rest of society like this, but the reluctance of people to be assosiated with a transwoman like myself puts me in these awkward positions.

I got speaking to a guy last night. He was handsome beyond belief. At first we seemed to get along just fine, but eventually he spoke to me about sex. I refused to do what he would want me to do, and at that point he completely lost interest in me. I tried to explain my position to him, but he then told me he was 'pissed off' and 'really angry', and then got up and left. It was quite frightening. I felt that he might actually lay a finger on me.

I felt shook up, but then started talking to another guy who I'd seen a couple of times, and seemed really friendly. But all he would talk about is sex. That's pretty much all I got out of the conversation. I then left, and had to pay £25 for the taxi home.

What I found most horrible last night is that I don't seem to be treated like a human being by anyone. When most people find out I'm trans, they act all patronising about how 'brave' I must be, and that my life must be a struggle. And when it comes to meeting men, half the population would only see me as some sort of freak, the other half I'm nothing more than a sexual fantasy - one that must fit their own specific mould, otherwise I'm of no use to them.

I'm sick to death of being nothing more than an object. And when I do complain about it, I'm normally told by people that I should expect this treatment and I need to be 'stronger'. But at least they are treated like normal people! At least they are judged on their own merits, rather than what may or may not be in my underwear.

Seriously, is it too much to ask that I be treated the same as everyone else? Is it too much to not be seen as something that is disgusting or erotic?

Ashlee, It is horrible what members of the trans community has to go though on their way to get your body and soul to match. No one should be treated as a sex object or sub human.

Just remember you have friends here that don't care that you are a trans woman, but care that you are Ashlee, Alton Towers fan and good person.

Some one will fall in love with you for who you are, not what you are.

Fed up with the way things are going or rather not going in my life over the past 4 months.

Shall start with my inability to get a job. Haven't had a job since I lost it in October and have been trying to apply for countless full time jobs with some resulting in Interviews and not getting past the first stage but most have ended up as dead ends and rejections. I'm not even that fussed what I apply for or get for that matter and I don't care for the money as long as I'm not stuck in the house watching rubbish daytime TV, completely bored out my tree. It's getting me down and isn't good for my self esteem for which I have a history of being low.

I'm having problems with unrequited love. I've liked a girl for awhile after being friends for years, we dated in September and became boyfriend and girlfriend for a week before she split with me and we still remain friends and see each other often. Its been 4 months since this and I thought I would be over my feelings by now but they won't seam to shift. I'm ok at hiding these feelings when I'm with her except when I've had too much to drink and then they come out and I make a fool of myself. I know she doesn't have the same feelings and I should accept it and move on and I suppose I've come to terms with the fact its not going to happen but I still have the feelings there.

I've also felt rather lonely these past few months and I shouldn't feel like this as I have friends in you great folk and have friends I see regularly but for some strange reason I still feel this way. I also feel lonely as I don't have someone to love and cherish. I can't listen to certain songs or watch certain things without the fear of becoming a blubbering mess. I cried at The Simpsons during a romantic scene between Homer and Marge for heavens sake.

It's not all bad though as I've been in contact with a great girl that I met on a dating site, we've been talking and I've met with a few times but haven't been on a date yet due to things getting in the way for example not having the money or her work schedule. I'm hoping things work out and hopefully make me more happier. I'm also hoping this will help me change the feeling's I have for my friend I mentioned as I can move on and fall in love with this girl as I really like her.

My life in general is pretty uneventful and very boring and I sometimes question if my life is going to be like this for the next 40 years what's the point?

Ashlee, I know I can't fully appreciate what you are feeling. All I can say is that it is often more prudent to not actively look for a relationship. Being hellbent on being in a relationship may land you in one that does not completely work for you.

I understand that it must be frustrating and that it may be a cliche, but sometimes good things come to those who wait.

I.fucking hate my life im being builled an have been since year seven stormed.out of lesson an the teacher says were here to help you but they dont get that if i tell them all of.it.starts again but worse i am seriously.depressed.

Will I ever not feel infinite sadness?

Will I ever feel happiness for more than a few hours every couple of weeks or months?

I feel dead inside. I thought I had a happy moment earlier. It went wrong, very wrong.

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