Matt N
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I might be an optimist, but I’ll admit I’m also somewhat of a worrier and have a tendency to dwell on things a bit.You've achieved an A* A Level grade @Matt N and you're dwelling on the C you got (in maths no less)? You're clearly academically very gifted, where's the usual over optimism mate? Not being one of the educated classes myself (I left school at 16 having failed everything) I could only dream of such a thing.
Trust me, you'll forget your GCSE and A Level results when you're older. You've already got a University place so there's nothing else you need to worry about. Secondary education is only a key to A levels, A levels are only a key to uni. Employers care about your degree, nothing else.
I know it seems silly that I’m catastrophising over a C, which is by no means a terrible grade, but I’ve always felt a lot of pressure from the school to achieve highly, so I worry I’ve let people down.
My family have never really pressured me at all, and have always been very supportive of whatever grades I’ve gotten, but whenever I was in classes, Cs were always referred to as grades we “shouldn’t be aspiring for” (I seem to remember “I want nothing less than Bs & As in this mock” coming up in many of my classes towards the end), and I was one of those students who had teachers telling me I should be aiming for “all As & A*s” and be shooting for a place in Oxbridge or at very least a Russell Group university (numerous teachers frowned upon me choosing to go to uni in Cheltenham for this very reason, because as much as I’ve always been hugely enamoured with the University of Gloucestershire whenever I’ve been to the campus or read about the course, and definitely feel it’s the right choice for me as a person, it isn’t a particularly prestigious or internationally acclaimed uni, so some of my teachers weren’t especially impressed).
Even though I know I’m nothing particularly special academically, I had some teachers who made me out to be some kind of academic prodigy and predicted me to get all As or whatever, and even though I know I’m not that, I always worried about disappointing them, because they did so much for me and were always so supportive of my academic career right through school. They were amazing to me and I feel like I’m doing them a disservice by not getting the top grades they hoped for.
Personally, I always found Maths a really difficult A Level, and while I’m disappointed that I got a C, as I was hoping for at least a B if not an A, I’m not hugely surprised deep down; the Year 2 material in particular was extremely difficult and had some concepts I really struggled with (I shudder thinking about the difficulty of some of the differentiation and integration we tackled in Year 2…), and the exams didn’t go the best in spite of me revising very hard for them. In hindsight, I’m not sure if Maths and Physics were A Levels best suited to me, as I found both pretty difficult in their own separate ways; they certainly didn’t come naturally to me, and were certainly somewhat of an uphill struggle.
I must admit that I’m relieved to have gotten an A* in my degree subject, though; makes me even more certain that I made the right choice by doing Computer Science in university!
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