No, give over.
Do some reading, learn some history of religion, especially the abrahamic religions that founded mono-theism. It some tales that got a lot of of hand and decided to copy someone elses' good idea on how to manipulate people.
We all need to move on from the sun gods asap, evil, poisonous things that they are.
Extraordinary claims require extraordinary evidence, nobody has ever produced any to support the idea of a invisible, all seeing, all knowing being that is oddly created in a similar image to the other principles knocking around at the time from the similar part of the world.
The God Delusion is a good a start as any, its a book by the only and only Richard Dawkins. Watch anything with Christopher Hitchens opinions on the subjects. Or just the historical analysis of religion and the logical reasoning behind there reasoning.
If you dont find amazement and wonder in the world we understand and the beautiful wonder of nature you should look around you more. There is no afterlife, we have a set amount of time, minutes, days on alive, enjoy them, make the most of them. Every day.