I totally echo what's already been said, don't feel like you have to apologise for being yourself! Others have already said it much better than me
You say this forum has become a big part of your life. Honestly I remember being on forums like these when I was a young teenager and I really regretted the amount of time I would spend on it. Maybe it's an idea to take a step back and not take things on here too personally? It did a world of good to have a break and it made my enjoyment of theme parks better, and a whole lot of other more important things out there.
It's not real interaction with people after all, it's just posts and discussion on a website. It's a good website for that, much better than a lot of social media theme park discussion, but you'll be missing out on the real world if you spend too much time every day on here!
In the end, it's only meant for fun and interest in theme parks, don't let it become too personal for you

But of course, you can do whatever you like, don't feel like you need to apologise!