I know that everyone's been saying the same things, but this pandemic is really starting to get to me now. It's looking like 17th March 2020 was my last day of school for some time, and while that probably excites most people my age, it makes me more scared because for me, it sort of represents the end of normality. I know that it'll all blow over eventually, but it's just the fear of not knowing when eventually is.
There's just so many different fears going through my head at the moment; I'm scared of getting the virus, I'm scared of passing on the virus, I'm scared that I might die from the virus, I'm scared about the virus' long-term impacts on the world. It's just all so overwhelming. I'm also somewhat scared for the future; before this outbreak, I had many things I was looking forward to. I had just acquired my first ever Premium Merlin Pass and was looking forward to getting in loads of park visits this year. I was optimistic about the nice things I could do with my family this year. I was looking forward to a potential family holiday to Florida in 2021 for my 18th birthday. Even though I will hopefully still get to do these things eventually, it does put my chances of actually ever doing them into doubt somewhat. I'm trying to stay positive about the future, but when people are saying morbid things like; "our world will change forever", "no one is safe", "there's no point in living anymore", it does make fear my overriding emotion.
I apologise for this post, because I worry that I sound self-centred worrying. I know very well that other people are going through far greater ordeals than I am, and I feel for these people a lot; I'd hate to be in their scenario.