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The I Feel Down Topic.

Poisson said:
I empathise with you, it's bloody tough but I found the way to pull through was just to think what they would want. I have a feeling my remaining set of grandfolks don't have long left, but I can't be down as they wouldn't want that.
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Indeed, Tom. One reason I still went to London was because Gran would've wanted me to carry on and go. To quote Queen,
"The show must go on.
The show must go on.
Inside my heart is breaking,
My make-up may be flaking,
But my smile still stays on."
Without initially realising it, those words sum up how I've got through the past three weeks.
 
So having finally got my lights rerigged after the weekend, my best laser is completely dead. Tried the fuse, tried different power leads, different sockets in different rooms... nada. Won't even turn on. Opened it up but nothing looks or smells burnt out, and I'm reluctant to mess about with it until I know what the problem is.
I can't even find the company that made it online, never mind find a replacement.

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DiogoJ42 said:
So having finally got my lights rerigged after the weekend, my best laser is completely dead. Tried the fuse, tried different power leads, different sockets in different rooms... nada. Won't even turn on. Opened it up but nothing looks or smells burnt out, and I'm reluctant to mess about with it until I know what the problem is.
I can't even find the company that made it online, never mind find a replacement.

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Which laser was it?
 
The Spark II (that's the twin green one that was hanging in the middle).
 
What should have been a nice easy (if long) night shift turned in to stress overload due to a major techical flaw in the design of the whole lighting system (the exact circumstances that caused it had never come up before now) that was beyond our control, and a director and producer that decided the best way to help us solve it was to shout abuse and swear at us over talkback in front of the whole crew. Really helpful at 9am when we have been working without a break since 1am. And after phoning the guy who installed and programmed the system, it turns out this is quite litterally impossible to fix and there is nothing we could do to solve it. But you keep shouting at us, that'll help us think. Good luck finding a crew for the Ashes when that comes round, because none of us will ever be working with you again.

Then I got home to find Olivia the rat had died.
 
Poor olivia, probably for the best considering she could not clean herself any more.

Nice to see you work with tech savy polite creative types. :D
 
Nooooo Olivia :( I presume it is the usual small, old rodent stoppage of the heart and shortage of breath
 
Yeah, she was getting to "that point" where we were think of taking her to the vet for the last time tomorrow anyway. :(
 
Probably to the worst week of my life this week, got my Grandads funeral on Thursday, he died on the 9th but it still hasn't properly sunk in, and probably won't until then. Found this guy that he made a call to and wrote up a page on him, and it got updated yesterday with an obituary and that's probably the hardest it's hit me yet. I was going to go and see him the weekend before but I had a vomiting bug, so that made it a lot worse because I hadn't seen him since before Christmas. Didn't see him much but he was probably the most inspirational person in my life. :(
 
Ryan B said:
Probably to the worst week of my life this week, got my Grandads funeral on Thursday, he died on the 9th but it still hasn't properly sunk in, and probably won't until then. Found this guy that he made a call to and wrote up a page on him, and it got updated yesterday with an obituary and that's probably the hardest it's hit me yet. I was going to go and see him the weekend before but I had a vomiting bug, so that made it a lot worse because I hadn't seen him since before Christmas. Didn't see him much but he was probably the most inspirational person in my life. :(
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Having lost my Gran only a couple of months ago, I understand how you may be feeling. It took a good few days for it all to properly sink in, though it only really hit me when I was one of the bearers to help take her coffin into the crematorium chapel. It's never easy to say goodbye to someone you love. I wanted to see Gran again before she died, but I ended up deciding that to do so would be too emotionally difficult for me to cope with. Do I regret that decision? Yes, I suppose I do to an extent, but it was never going to be an easy decision to make at all. Throughout my life, and during all the changes that have happened (mainly moving to different places around the country), my grandparents were that one thing that remained constant. Seven years ago, I still had all four. Now I've only got one. I loved my Gran to bits, and now she's gone. She was a wonderful woman, and now I'll never be able to see or speak to her again. Or have any of her amazing food again. (Not even kidding, her roast potatoes were out of this world. :p) I can only begin to imagine how you must be feeling, though. If you ever want to talk about it any further, then please do feel free to drop me a PM.
 
I'm finding life a struggle. My little boy keeps getting tonsillitis and he won't eat or drink and has a ridiculously high temperature which is really scary. I'm on my own with him and giving him medicine is a huge battle. It's really hard being 100% responsible for the running of a house with no help at all. I've fallen out with my best friend. And the wold of dating is just horrible. The one guy I met who I really liked has just stopped talking to me. Just feel like ****. Anxiety is really bad.

I know people have it so much worse, but I just needed to get that out.
 
Amy said:
I'm finding life a struggle. My little boy keeps getting tonsillitis and he won't eat or drink and has a ridiculously high temperature which is really scary. I'm on my own with him and giving him medicine is a huge battle. It's really hard being 100% responsible for the running of a house with no help at all. I've fallen out with my best friend. And the wold of dating is just horrible. The one guy I met who I really liked has just stopped talking to me. Just feel like ****. Anxiety is really bad.

I know people have it so much worse, but I just needed to get that out.
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Sorry to hear this, Amy. You are a great person and really deserve a lot better than being treated like such ****. Please feel free to drop me a message if you ever need a chat. :)
 
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I'm not usually a fan of Ed Sheeran, but last night I listened to his uncharacteristically excellent 'Castle on the Hill' properly and found myself upset as if I'd lost something or someone. What was it? It's not the innocence of childhood, I don't think. Mine was nowhere near as edgy as the song makes it sound like his was; generally unspectacular with only moments of greatness. I think it's probably a different aspect of my past; most likely the part of me that once had drive, determination and maybe some idea of where I was actually going or wanting to go in life. From considering that I went on to evaluate my general situation, which I knew wasn't much cop anyway, but after going through it properly I definitely don't feel like the competent, functional adult that people might see me as any more.

Ten years on from school I have no real ambitions. My job is quite frankly rubbish, but I've no idea what I'd rather do and I don't think I've ever actually known what I want to do with my life, or certainly not for a hell of a long time. I have ideas and hardly ever see them through to completion, if indeed I start them at all. I'm late for pretty well everything. I procrastinate against my responsibilities, knowing damn well as I do so that I should actually be spending the time on things that on paper aren't difficult. My living space is a tip, and because I don't make any serious effort to put that right clearly some part of me thinks that's OK. I don't have trouble sleeping at night, but that may be partially down to the fact that I don't let myself go to bed at sensible times and consequently wake up not much less knackered than I was before. Anyone got any ideas on how to sort myself out?
 
It's March. I graduated from Uni 8 months ago, I'm still unemployed, everything seems to be going against me, I can't find a job, I'm stuck at home with the family with no chance to move anywhere. Feel like I'm trapped here...
 
I feel similar the same way you do Dave. I'm not that much younger than you are and like you I never really knew what I wanted to do with my life when I was at Secondary School. I just had the fear that if I did want to do something later in life, I'd probably quickly lose interest and didn't really want to do anything long term I wasn't passionate about. I even went to college, did a course for the sake of doing it rather than doing it because I wanted to.

Hope you're feeling okay though mate :)
 
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