Meat Pie said:
I've been prescribed anti-depressants and I'm incredibly nervous about starting them. It's clear to me that if I don't take them, then I will forever get worse until I end up committing suicide, but I don't want to lose myself to tablets either.
Possibly not what you want, but I'll give the honest answer - I'm afraid it gets worse before it gets better. That's my experience anyway - the first few weeks on medication are quite unpleasant while your body gets used to chemical changes, and your emotions are in overdrive - be as easy as you can on yourself over this time, avoid stressful or upsetting situations and make sure any loved ones or important colleagues/teachers whatever are understanding of what you're going through.
It's also a good idea to stay in touch with your doctor, who'll be able to advise you of what's 'normal' or 'healthy' to experience, and what is cause for concern. Do NOT read the side-effects leaflet, it's long, scary and will have you believe you're experiencing all of them. This reminds me, I'm long overdue a review appointment - I've been on a mild dose of mood stabilisers since October, and feel completely back to my old self (I've been that way since before Christmas, really, so there's positive news!) but am loathed to change anything too suddenly. Anyways, best of luck and cliched though it is, stay positive
Time for me to share bad news for a change - my ex-girlfriend's decided it would be a good idea to come back into my life
again. I really, really want to sort things out with her, just because it would make things easier all round, but at the same time, brilliant though she is, she's also the single most destructive force I've ever encountered, and any previous attempts at reconcilliation have always ended in tears. And they've always been mine. So I'm a bit scared...