delta79 said:I had to do CPR this afternoon, It was not successful. If the downer of trying your hardest and them not surviving was not bad enough.
It was my dad I was doing CPR on.
So you will excuse me if i am a bit quiet on the board for a couple of days.
Sam said:Stupid little things keep me going. I think deep down inside, I don't really want to die. So I invent absurd excuses to keep going. "I can't die without knowing if the new ride at Towers is any good or not." "What if Kraftwerk release a new album and I never hear it?"
I will try talking to the Samaritans, but I don't really know what to say to them. I'm currently taking treatment for depression, it's not like I'm not doing anything about it. I can't really think of what to say to them, but I'll try it, thanks.
Sam said:Yeah, I've mentioned to the doctor about my suicidal thoughts. I tell them every time I go, but there isn't much more they can do than try various treatments, none of which work. I'm just destined to be unhappy.
I didn't ring up the Samaritans because I'm scared of the phone, but I e-mailed them and have had a reply already, and replied again.
I feel guilty spamming up this thread with my trivial patheticness. I'm sorry. My problems are nothing compared to what you must be going through delta79. I'm sorry for making this topic so petty when other people have genuine problems. *hugs*