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The I Feel Down Topic.

I actually don't think I have any real friends. They pretty much insult me every five minutes weather they call me "Gay" (Which shouldn't be an insult) or "Retard" it's extremely annoying and quite frankly stupid. I HATE MY GENERATION

In other news I think I know who is behind that comment on my YouTube channel, I'd really appreciate it, if anyone on here with a YouTube account Flagged and disliked these accounts:

http://www.youtube.com/user/therealtrebla
https://www.youtube.com/user/ThatCrawlyFinger?feature=watch
 
False hope and broken promises. Seems these are a common theme in my life for the past few months, and no signs it'll get better.
 
We came second today in school athletics. But I ran 1500m and I am now totally knackered. My legs and feet hurt. And tomorrow I have to run a grand total of 2700m. :( 400m followed by 800m then another 1500m because all of my class are lazy little buggers. Only wanting to run 100m or 200m and do field events. :/
 
alee298 said:
We came second today in school athletics. But I ran 1500m and I am now totally knackered. My legs and feet hurt. And tomorrow I have to run a grand total of 2700m. :( 400m followed by 800m then another 1500m because all of my class are lazy little buggers. Only wanting to run 100m or 200m and do field events. :/
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Just don't bother tomorrow tbh
 
I went to the doctors as i was feeling tired and run down, and came out with a diagnostic of mild depression.
 
^ Getting diagnosed means more efficient access to treatment, you should be in good hands now :)

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7 years ago when my parents split up, my dad believed he was then devoid of all responsibility for myself and my sister. He provided no emotional support and regularly completely s__t on us in ways that you wouldn't believe, mostly revolving around his bipolar disorder. As in denile as I was, he was really only a source of money for when we absolutely needed.

Since I came to uni, he was giving me a little bit each month to help out with food and such, a nice gesture from someone who abused me as a child and who I longed more than anything to have a proper relationship with. Today, totally out of the blue, he told me I was being 100% cut off as of yesterday.

I don't know how to feel. I still long to have a relationship with him despite what's happened, but for all intents and purposes, he's dead to me. Despite my best efforts, we're finally totally estranged.
 
Generic 'I hate my body' post.
Why the 'thigh gap', 'hip bones' and 'starved look' is so popular among teenage girls, I'll never know. Despite my best efforts to eat more I'm still losing weight. :(
 
^ complete opposite of that Panda for me. Trying to lose some poundage... Eating more and exercising just weighing more, cycle 7 miles a day and now have hench legs. Just a bit of a belly. :( Note I am a boy :p Being fat isn't fun for anyone.
 
panda, most people have a part of their body which they secretly hate. I don't like my party keg belly and would love a 6 pack, but I have never been able to get it.
 
Panda said:
Generic 'I hate my body' post.
Why the 'thigh gap', 'hip bones' and 'starved look' is so popular among teenage girls, I'll never know. Despite my best efforts to eat more I'm still losing weight. :(
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Thigh gap is ... urrrgh! *shudders* It is so unnatural looking I've NO idea why it's popular.

Right my turn to vent

I was recently asked to do a job that may finally get me out of working at costa and going into a more specialist music field. I was asked by my university to man the sound desk for a production of the magic flute. Upon arriving, it was severely apparent that they had lied to me... I'm on the desk, but they went back on their statement that I'll never have to mic anything up, that I'd have a sound team and it'd be all ready for me. So I'm sat there, one single man, sorting out radio mics, tuning them, testing them, and handing them out to said actors (16 mics all together).

To any of you sound techies out there, this means I'm controlling 16 mics through an analogue desk. I knew it was going to be hard work, but they've expected me to do a whole lot more. I was asked about producing sound effects for things that I didn't even know they wanted, when I said I was never asked they looked at me as if I was some incompetent loser and that I should have known because, ya know, I can clearly read minds, after all!

I havent even had a quote of payment other than "There may be a bit of money in it for you". So, any less than £100 and I've decided to NEVER do any work for my university again. They've screwed me around far too many times now, and I'm quite frankly sick of it. I've been humiliated, embarrassed, and used by them...

Great music department. But they have ABSOLUTELY NO IDEA how to talk to each other.

So I'm there all week, while I'm also working mornings in costa. I've taken off one day, so I need to make that even. I'm being told by the lighting techie's that I'll need to work through the night to sort stuff out. Sorry but f that! I doubt I'm actually being paid!

Fuming.
 
Believe me, I know exactly how you feel mate. Us techies always get screwed over one way or another. People seem to think we can just press a button and make magic happen because "it's all just computers, isn't it?". ::)
Lighting and sound may moan at eachother, but we can always unite against the common enemy. ;)
 
Don't really actually have any words for this post. Just, yeah.

Hope some of the other troubles I've read about on here have cleared up for you all.
 
DiogoJ42 said:
Believe me, I know exactly how you feel mate. Us techies always get screwed over one way or another. People seem to think we can just press a button and make magic happen because "it's all just computers, isn't it?". ::)
Lighting and sound may moan at eachother, but we can always unite against the common enemy. ;)
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The lighting guy is really nice actually. ;D He keeps coming over and asking how things are going, checking that I'm doing okay. Apparently last night I did really well juggling 16 radio mics on an analogue desk! ;)

Last night went a lot better than I thought it would. A couple of mics dropped out due to batteries, naturally. But it actually all went quite smoothly. At least I know what I'm doing on the desk! XD
 
I guess at least with an analogue desk, you don't have to learn a new system. It may be hard work, but at least it's logical, and you know what to do? (I'm assuming this based on lighting desks).



I'm just about to set of for my first day of work in yonks. Excited, but nervous because the guy I'm working for ... how can I put this without swearing? He's not a very nice person.
 
Kinda, the only issue with an analogue is effects are a bit nightmarish. That and controlling the volumes is a never-ending task, 'specially in Opera! One moment the sopranos are singing really quiet the next thing they're belting out a high f so it's like AAAAHHHH.

Nothing better than moving 7 faders simultaneously at the same time, I'm just glad I have big hands ::)
 
I've been living in London for almost a year now, and I've been unable to find a permanent job. Sure I've had temporary roles, but to not have a steady job in this city is really debilitating because everything is so damn expensive. So now I have stress due to that, the fact that I seem to have nothing to show for the last year, that I've barely been able to make any friends here, and I have my operation coming up next year which will surely affect any chances of getting permanent work. I'll need sick pay to just survive the two months I'll be off work.

What's more, I seem to be the only person I know who is in this position. I keep hearing of how bad the job market is, but none of my friends are unemployed (unless they ae in full time learning). It makes me feel pathetic.

It's getting too much for me now.
 
Having started a course of antidepressants, I've felt my moods go from bad to worse. My anxiety has shot through the roof.

I just feel unwell :(

Sorry for double post :(
 
AshleeKel said:
Having started a course of antidepressants, I've felt my moods go from bad to worse. My anxiety has shot through the roof.

I just feel unwell :(

Sorry for double post :(
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I've been on anti-depressants for just over 2 months now for anxiety.

The first few weeks were awful, I felt so ill and really wanted to stop taking them. Bear with it though, I feel fantastic now. Take care.
 
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