The I Feel Down Topic.

alee298

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Colossus or Oblivion
Nothing loves me anymore, the last person that did just buggered off. Nothing to love as it has all been taken away... What is the point. Guess I will have to learn to live like steve from minecraft. All alone. Everything against you. Nothing to love. Nothing loves you.
 

delta79

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Nemesis, Air
*Gives Alex Cyber man hug.*

Remember you are never truely alone when you got TS. Just remember thing will get better, It may seen dark now but there is alway light at the end of the tunnel.
 

Islander

TS Member
Got to the stage where on the inside I'm feeling worse than ever, but somehow (and not consciously) I'm portraying a happier, more problem-free image on the outside. Which is great, 'cause it just leaves everyone thinking I'm fine.
 

delta79

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Nemesis, Air
I think I was right not to take the anti depressants. as I would be run out Tuesday. and the first appointment i can get is in September.

Nothing says we care for your mental health as having an appointment moved back by a month.

Well it nice to have it validated that I am worthless and unwanted as I feel!
 

WillG

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Katun
Sympathise with that - in the last few months, it's needed me to do some particularly unfortunate things to remind the NHS that I exist. Alas, the consequence has been seeing every GP in my local practice (all of whom told me slightly different things, and the best of whom annoyingly was only there temporarily), can get to feel a bit like you're chasing your tail.

Alas, you do have to be persistent sometimes. I've also learned that so-called talking therapies quickly just become another source of frustration - sure, I can talk in circles once a week about what's happened, what's upset me blablaba, but all it seems to do is create more unanswered questions, when what I could do with is an answer and a reason to look forwards rather than backwards for once!

I've battled with these things on and off for over a decade now, and when a certain person screams at me "No, I DON'T know what's wrong with you, and I'm sick of this, I think you need to see a doctor..." it only makes me more determined to get to the bottom of it and sort my bloody life out. That was 2 months ago, and it still hurts, and therein lies the problem.

There... may have gone off the point a little, but venting is good :)
 

delta79

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Nemesis, Air
WillG I could ring the GP surgery, say a couple of key words. tell the receptionist to talk to the GP i have asked for, and to ring back with an appointment. and i would get one within 24hrs. But i dont see why i have to justify my need for a 'urgent' appointment.

I am a sandwich carer (someone who cares for two generations), for my mentally disabled daughter and physical disabled mum. Carers have a higher rate of depression, yet the NHS dont seem to do much about their mental well being.

The one good thing with the adaptation to my mum house she can get on without live in help. but someone has to pop around one a day.

The only time i have had anything near rest-bite is going to AT. as my wife go on call for emergences with my mum. and I only have to look after my daughter who come to AT with me.

The red band system there is a god send, (after the faffing about getting a doctors letter) there is no worry of her kicking off in the queueline, although she did have a turn at a rude lad in the Fastrack queue in the smiler building (long story)
 

Stevie

TS Member
Life is utter s*** right now. I've never sensed a bigger feeling of isolation in my life.

I don't know what to do anymore, it seems like all my friends don't want to know me anymore. I've been stuck in the house, doing the same thing all day every day, for the past few weeks now. Get up, have breakfast, log on to my laptop, listen to music until about 3am and repeat process the next day.

Every other summer holidays, I'd be out with my friends, enjoying life. But it seems like they've got their own things to do and I'm just left as a spare toy to use whenever they're feeling bored. I'm sick of it, I'm sick of being pushed away.

I just want to give a massive middle finger to life right now.

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Meat Pie

TS Member
I feel profoundly hollow and melancholic. Its like being frozen in time at the moment you come to a realisation that makes your blood run cold.

It's strange because I've had a particularly good couple of days until this point.
 

Poisson

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The Giant Squid
Results Tomorrow. 99% sure I've been kicked out of Sixth Form.

Ah well, let the drinking commence
 

Vicki

TS Member
Going to be single forever. A girl with a list of one nighters and 2 month relationships I know has just got engaged.

There is no hope for me because:

I won't sleep with someone until I'm in a committed relationship - marriage ideally.
I am FAT
I don't drive
I've only had 2 boyfriends, they were both idiots.

Supposedly, I have a nice personality and am fun to be around, so WHY am I so unattractive?!

Am sat nearly in tears (although I have removed this girl from my FB - our friendship ended last year so no reason for her posts to make me feel awful, right?)
 

Natalie

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Phantom Manor
All I have to say is that feel at this moment in time the police are crap, they've not kept me updated on my case, they've taken the bail conditions off the other person and the court date is for the beginning of October! It's complete poo and I do feel like writing a very strongly worded letter or email to Derbyshire Police right now.
 

Amy

TS Contributor
Vicki said:
Going to be single forever. A girl with a list of one nighters and 2 month relationships I know has just got engaged.

There is no hope for me because:

I won't sleep with someone until I'm in a committed relationship - marriage ideally.
I am FAT
I don't drive
I've only had 2 boyfriends, they were both idiots.

Supposedly, I have a nice personality and am fun to be around, so WHY am I so unattractive?!

Am sat nearly in tears (although I have removed this girl from my FB - our friendship ended last year so no reason for her posts to make me feel awful, right?)


Please don't think that you're going to be single forever. I firmly believe that there is somebody for everyone, no matter what you think your shortcomings are.

I met my husband on www.plentyoffish.com So many people slate that site, and I have to admit I hated it at first. I only went on there on the advice of friends to "flirt and get my confidence up" as they put it. I didn't even want a boyfriend at the time. I ended up meeting Steven on there and spent the first month refusing to commit to him! We are coming up to our first wedding anniversary and he is amazing. I've never been someone who attracted a lot of men! I thought I'd be single forever. Two more of my friends have met their husbands on the same site. Maybe consider giving it a go.

Whether you decide to or not, good luck. I'm sure there is hope for you :)

If you'd like to know any more, feel free to message me!
 

Vicki

TS Member
Thanks Amy, it's great to hear people's stories. I don't think online dating is for me, at this moment (still live at home and parents are VERY against it, so I couldn't meet someone without having to lie to them - something I don't want to do). I know a couple who met on Yahoo dating so know it can work for people.

Unfortunately, I've been bullied so much through secondary school I find it hard to trust people, especially men. I've been hurt too many times, and I'm scared of it happening again. I think the other night was particularly hard as if I'd stayed with my ex, I could've been engaged now too.

But then, I'd be with someone who has no intention of ever finding work and just wants to sit and play Xbox, so I'd be miserable. If they say they'll borrow the money for the engagement ring from their Mum, RUN!

Just wish I could see this supposedly amazing person that my friends all think I am. There is a guy I like, and I'm thinking of asking him out for a drink, but just scared he'll say no or is no longer single and I'll get hurt yet again!
 

Andrew

TS Contributor
My parents have been arguing over the past few weeks. It appeared that they had made up for the majority of this week but it's all kicked off again tonight. I don't know why they're angry with each other but it's making me feel really upset and down.

I just want things to be OK again...
 

Ted

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Taron
The main problem is Longy that you seem to be a bit worried and scared about what your parents are arguing about. In reality though it shouldn't be that worried on your end as it's probably not your fault anyway.
 

GAGrathea

TS Founding Member
Vicki said:
There is a guy I like, and I'm thinking of asking him out for a drink, but just scared he'll say no or is no longer single and I'll get hurt yet again!

This sounds like the kind of thing you should definitely just do! Reckon you'd regret it more if you didn't :)
 
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