The I Feel Down Topic.

[Slugjc]

I changed careers in November, I didn't realise how Anxious I get at the slightest of changes.

I now drive HGV's and if it's not clear as to the route, if it's .somewhere new. I panic. Not to mention the pressure of the Tacho timings. Time pressure has always been an issue for me.

 

[rob666]

Well done on the job shift mate.
With the state of the roads, traffic and temporary lights in abundance, you have my absolute respect.
I often resort to turning round and going to another job, or planning my whole day around avoiding peak traffic...options you don't have.

 

[Itgoeshowhigh]

I’ve been putting off posting because this feels quite personal. However opening season just feels like a kick in the teeth right now. I’m so bloody fed up.

I’ve been unwell for months now and there’s seems no end in sight.

I’ve missed the Halloween season. I’ve missed Christmas (I had a weeks annual leave booked and I’d saved up hoping to go to somewhere in Europe).

And now theme parks are open again and I’m still not well enough to go anywhere.

I’m trying to be thankful. It’s nothing life threatening and there are people far worse off than me. But it’s still rubbish. Occupational health are going with a working diagnosis of Pots but I’m still waiting for cardiology to get an official diagnosis so can’t get a rap yet.

Work wise I’m on very limited duties. I’m lucky as a nurse that my role is 50/50 admin/clinical so I have been able to return and make it work to some extent. But I keep pushing myself too much because I feel guilty that I’m not pulling my weight.

I’m only working 6 hrs a day but I have absolutely nothing left after work. Im beyond exhausted even with very light duties. I’ve also had to cut my hours so there’s a financial impact.

All the things I enjoy, walking, gardening, theme parks; I just can’t do right now.
I was planning to do a Europe trip in May. Not gonna happen now.

I feel ill all the time. And I can’t do anything nice. I just want to cry.

 

[Slugjc]

Cheers Rob.

I've said before on this forum somewhere, long ago. Now I've reached the age 40, the discussion around mental health has changed massively on the last 10 years. I can see parts of my life where, in hindsight, I was behaving in a way that I don't understand now. Think I was depressed. Life wasn't going how I wanted. Mates got jobs that I know I could do, because of my (at the time) undiagnosed dyslexia. Couldn't get near. Bottled uni because I knew my reading and writing was poor, struggled to know what to do due to very bad career advice from school and mum.

When I moved out of home and was stuck in a dead end job.I would consume Towers theming on you tube. Played LMA manager constantly when I was alone at home.

Now I know, listening to podcast and reading this forum, I can see others struggle too. Even when they have the breaks and talent, I dont have.

BEing anxious or depressed, is nothing to be ashamed of. Everyone is. Those who say they aren't are lying. My major advice, make sure you open up to someone. In person, on here. Anywhere.